Inspiration For The Weekend

Found here.

I'm battling certain separation issues that stem from the back end of this week. It's ironic really. See, I've been in love with this boy for almost 3 years now, I've talked to him every day, sometimes several times. We went to America together, he brought me to university, we watched as my brother passed out of school and went to university, and so on. It's ironic because for the majority of the time we've been together he and I have been living 7 hours apart, he in Somerset, me in County Durham. We're used to this, not that one can ever really become fully accustomed to a long distance relationship, we just realise that my time at university will really benefit my future, and any future we build together so we get on with our little lives, and spend time on Skype and suchlike.

Yet when he decided go away on a 'lads' (and I use that term very loosely here) 5 day trip he promised that nothing would change, that he'd make sure he'd call/text at least once a day, buy me a present and promised not to touch any of the filthy ladies of the night (prize for the person who can guess where he's gone!).

The biggest issue from him going away with the 'lads', and what I really hate is that, in my opinion, he constantly makes the distinction between me being his girlfriend and nothing more. Like I am a separate entity, not part of his friendship circle. He is one of my best friends, and I just wish that he would understand that he doesn't have to keep me separate from everyone else, I can be his girlfriend and his friend too, right?

So when I found this little quote of inspiration I told myself that maybe I should always give him another chance with these little trivial things, because maybe they're just my own brain telling me to go after perfection, and my version of perfection isn't always right. After all he is the reason I don't give up, he keeps me going, and I would like him to need me to keep him going too.

So I guess what I'm trying to say is that if you're ever at a cross road with a decision or, for want of a better phrase, stuck between a rock and a hard place, just remember that tomorrow brings just another chance to get it right. There's nothing worse that seeing someone give up when what they have is exactly what's good for them, or even that you know that they're almost at the finish line.

For you, boy, tomorrow is another chance to try and understand what I see and feel.

Have a lovely weekend <3